"I took 3 nights and
3 days off of work, to step by step find out why I ended up where I did, and what I was like in the past --- there
were a series of beliefs about changes, and problem solving, and crisis management, etc etc that were tied to negative
beliefs, not positive -- the deadly combo that collided in my '07 devistating career loss, and knocked me down
for the count.
to find an unconventional method of getting back to my old state of mind, and since you can't change the past, the only way
this could be done would be to change certain beliefs about types of events, and place them in a certain sequence working
from the present to the past, systematically having all past experiences not have effected me at all. hold onto your hat now
Mother --- I got to the sequence of changes needed, and found them to be "in theory" correct. Then I had to believe
that if I could adopt these beliefs, in order as I had written,and that they would work. Then I had to believe that my
mind would accept them without question, and that I had come up with a way to fix all issues at once, and it would work.
took 5 seconds / I was awake and felt layer by layer of beliefs change, which one by one, removed doubts and
ability to resolve issues and so on and so on, and at the end of this change in my mind eliminating negative responses to
all of my life events which led to my depression, there was a moment of calm, and then I felt all at once, my mind analyze
what just happened, and like a light switch turning on, I felt my confidence come back, a feeling that i had not felt for
many, many years. "